I woke up this morning to a question. The question was; “What would you change about yourself if you could?”
Instantly I knew the answer, it’s been the same answer since I was twelve years old. I’d change the fact that I have a disability. Being 23 and having a disability usually has it ups and downs. When it comes to those times I’m literally so over being myself. Then five minutes later, I decided that was too deep, so I decided I’d change the fact that I’m too forgiving.
As I got into the shower I thought more about the question, and then I decided I wouldn’t change a thing. I’ve spent so much time of my life wishing that I could be different or more like certain people, that I always forget to love myself exactly how I am.
There’s nobody in this entire universe that’s exactly me and that’s such a beautiful and comforting thought. My body has taken me places, fought through exhaustion, been through multiple surgeries, and gotten me through situations I never thought I could handle because of being disabled, but I did.
My personality may have not always been for everyone but it has brought me towards people I know are meant to be in my life. While I may consider myself to be too forgiving, it’s what makes me, me. I always try to see the best in others because of this trait.
Everything I’ve been through has helped me learn and continue to grow into the person I am today. I’m still continuing to learn and grow as I’m getting older and I realize that there’s always going to be moments where I wish I could change something about my life, but I’m always going to have to try and love myself first.